Wednesday, August 8, 2007

The rush after the break


The words have been stuck inside. Building in a crescendo, the beat hard against my heart.

So much going on- so many emotions, thoughts, plans- rushing and pulsing through my veins.

Ideas, words, images, colors - filling my mind for my art, for my home, for my husband, for C and for myself.

I feel it all so tense pressing and rising like water against a dam-on the verge, tiny trickles I see heeding warning for the poignant moment before the break.

I see myself clearer now and more in tune.

I am so much more aware of the person I am, not who I am trying to figure out.

I am good with the me when once I was not- the little details are my makeup and I love them more and more.

Letting go of the stigmas I have placed upon myself.

I find myself drawn in so many directions and now as I walk my individual path the journey resonates deeper with rich blessings and optimism I can feel- a slight energy that reverberates inside.

For some time I felt I had only been trying to find my fit.

Confidence is securing the love for myself now.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Cayden,

You are always in a consent path of being a better person, mother, friend, wife . . . and for that reason I am inspired and empowered. I am proud to call you my sister. I am glad you don't just settle for the hand that has been dealt. I am glad you fight to change your life in a better direction, a path that you want it to go, no matter what obstacle may lay ahead, you find a way to make it better, you find a way to better yourself. I am glad you love yourself (and C) that much:)

We need to work out together :)

XOXO

-M-

Amanda said...

beautiful picture. and the words really make the tears swell up for you. that you are discovering yourself and enjoying who you are.
you are an amazing soul.
love you.
so much.
a

kelly barton art + design said...

oh what a beautiful scene....
i think the road to self discovery is always just as colorful.